And to think....

I thought it was diet and exercise!

No wonder so many of us have screwy body images.

Some of my favorite things....

Drinking in the afternoon... nothing like being good and buzzed by dinner time... and completely sober by bed time.... Relax..... this is a very rare event in my life.... but I love it!!!

A clean house... MY clean house... and for the record my house is only "clean" for about 5 minutes, before it is on the decline. The sucky thing is that this 5 minutes is usually late at night and witnessed by no one.... except me.... ;)

Chicken wings... like the ones in the oven this very moment... Deep fried, drenched in hot sauce and butter and baked to orgasmic perfection... Screw the blue cheese... I'm doing shots of that sauce (yes... I do that).

Ahhhhhhhhhh.......

I love Sundays......

In training...

I have been "approved" for training to be a Jazzercise Instructor, so for the next couple of weeks, I'll be in Jazzer-bootcamp....

Big Deal, you say???

Well considering that 2 years ago I looked like I ate a Jazzercise Instructor... it is a big deal, right?


xo

connection

My aunt gave me a dvd with our family old home movies. They are of my grandparents various anniversaries and of my parent's wedding.

It is an amazing thing to see your parents on their wedding day in action. Looking at all the hope and expectation in their face knowing what their future truly will be. I wonder if my sons will think the same when viewing mine in years to come.

It was such a strange thing to see them together. My parents have been divorced my whole life. They were married for about 5 years, and then had me, and basically divorced when I was 2, so I have no concept of them actually being together. They also used to fight terribly through me, and I couldn't imagine how 2 people who seemed to hate each other so much ever got together in the first place.

In their movie, they were kissing and hugging and they were in love. My dad was so young, barely 18, only recognizable by his mannerisms (God, I miss so much). My mom was pretty much the same, which makes sense as she really never grew up.

I watched this movie of these young people surrounded by their families with really bad hairdos, incessantly smoking, and I realized something. They were so normal. It was the scene of the typical American family sitting at long tables of food on those fold up chairs hiding in the corner of your basement this very minute, but of course that was just in the movie. I became a little angry that I wasn't afforded at least the appearance of normalcy in my life. In fact their normalcy shocked me it was so contrasting. I also realized as I stared at these two people of whom I am their only offspring, that I did not feel connected to them whatsoever.....

Happy New Year!!!

Well...it is here.. 2008! And what does that mean? Good thing to contemplate on the first day of the new year I think.

I do make resolutions, and I'm proud to say that I usually stick to them. Of course they are the same ones you usually make, about diet and exercise, saving money, lessening stress.... but not this year.

I am going to think of things differently. I'm not going to think in terms of personal habits, but in terms of personal accomplishments.

Now.. what do I want to accomplish?

hmmmm... I'll get back to you..


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